Sacrificing myself to the last Blog of the old era
Of course, I'm just rambling,
I'll update with whatever comes to mind later
The Old Bad Days#
Writing a blog is really a difficult thing, especially for someone like me who is (linguistically) illiterate.
Since I started school, I have never seriously recorded anything in writing—when I was young, I always thought that taking notes was meaningless. If there was any knowledge point that needed to be recorded for later reference, it was better to memorize it in my mind first. Once I understood it thoroughly, I wouldn't need to take notes anymore.
Looking back now, the habit of "not wanting to write" has brought me a lot of trouble: my lack of language organization skills has tortured me in both learning and work (of course, this includes writing this blog); naively thinking I could fight against the forgetting curve, I have never organized the knowledge I learned over the years, and now even if I want to pick it up again, there is no trace left; I can't even write clear and coherent segments for technical documents; the jumbled words I put together are even worse than the examples generated by AI today.
Deciding to start rewriting my blog from now on is also a last struggle against my current severe anxiety.
I started writing blogs as early as high school: on one hand, it was just a simple experiment; at that time, GitHub Pages had just emerged, Ruby was still the mainstream for web development, and I managed to set up Jekyll; on the other hand, it was to record my experiences solving problems during my middle school OI training. Of course, these blogs, unsurprisingly, have hardly been updated, and I lost track of what I recorded long ago. The only existing last blog has only a few "TODO" marks.
To be continued? Never started!
After working for more than a year, I now find that not only am I unable to keep up with my abilities, but my body is also starting to have various problems, which in turn affects my learning and memory. I can't even concentrate at work; insomnia, anxiety, chest tightness, dizziness...
A health report that is longer than last year,
Revengeful late nights and severely insufficient sleep
Complaints for 2024, unexpectedly, the beginning of 2025 is even worse than the whole of last year
Why xLog#
- Markdown: Although it's not great (not a unified standard & plugins), it's still better than rich text.
- Git management: At first glance, it seems convenient, but most blogs are updated chronologically, and my output doesn't reach the level that requires git management; it's not necessary for me, even not optional.
- Static service: The motivation to update is even less; every time I write an article, I have to use a computer with Git and Hugo installed, and it's not friendly to binary files like images.
After the enthusiasm for Geek culture faded, I began to recognize my own needs: for me, a complete CMS service with a management backend and editor like Blogger is the most handy tool; a low-density UI design allows me to focus more on reading content. When I came across xlog, I found that this is the Blogger I wanted—comfortable default design, reasonable text spacing, no strange ads, and limited but uncomplicated customization (with a hint of Apple flavor).
Future?#
- Troubled by anxiety, I currently don't have much vision for the future, but unexpectedly, I found that I am very greedy and possessive?
- Build my own NES emulator?
- Survive the debt of 2025